Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Hard day

I have had a hard day, and Akila isn't even home from school. The emotions of the severity of her behavior has hit me. I have spent the day calling the county, emailing Dr.'s, friends, researching, etc. In between emails and calls, I cried. And I cried.

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I didn't get this post finished before the bus arrived. She raged again all night, well, she settled down at dinner time, after about two hours of raging, over wanting fake fingernails (which she currently is wearing, but wants different ones). I am being told different things by different people, and need some time to think about what strategy we need to take with her behavior.

Tomorrow (or today I should say), I will be at a FASD workshop at the U of M all day. And then on Friday, Akila and I will go to see her new Psychiatrist for a med adjustment, which is obviously needed. I am off to bed now, praying sleep will come quickly.

5 comments:

GB's Mom said...

You are in my prayers. No advice- just {{{{Hugs}}}}

dorothy said...

Sigh, sniff...I ma so weeping with you and Akila.
hug...

DynamicDuo said...

I don't have any real advice, just that I've been there, with twins, and somehow we made it out the other side. My girls are now 16, the violence is greatly reduced and the length of the rages is also reduced. Occasionally we still have a complete wobbler. We never had any help - PCA's etc... - we just gritted our teeth and lived through it. I've had many "breakdowns", so wanting it to be done and go away. I look back now and our "restraining" all those years was never pretty, my girls are very strong and very verbal so when I got tag-teammed I was fortunate not to need medical help. Did we do all the right things - NO, we lost our tempers, ran out of patience etc... but through the grace of God we were able to hang in there. I pray that the day will come when Akila's emotional state begins to level out. Our girls have never been medicated. In the last year we started them on Choline and Inositol, it seems to helping. We can tell when they haven't taken them. Peace to you - Lynn

Little Wonder said...

Just catching up on your blog...

I'm praying for you, your family and that you all find the peace you need.

I'm so sad that life has to be this difficult for so many blog "friends" that I read.

AKBrady said...

I remember that moment. Cry. Cry hard, and then remember who is walking this walk with you. Every stinking, violent, and painful step.
We're with you, too. Even though we've not met. You are such an inspiration to me.