Here are a few examples. Last night, she had a school concert. I went by myself as Michael had to work late and it did not sound like fun to the other kids- they are pretty burnt out right now, we all are. After the concert, Akila was walking through the theatre in front of all her middle school classmates holding my hand. I didn't think of it at first, I am so use to her grabbing my hand. We were walking through the lobby and were close to the door. Very few people were around and I said, "do you want to put your mittens on? It is cold outside." She had taken my mittens to school yesterday with my permission and was excited about them. This girl, who 10 seconds ago was holding my hand with the sweetest smile, gave me the look of satan, got very mad, and elbowed me in the ribs. She would have done more if there were not people around.
Tonight, she went to a respite provider for the weekend. Thank God, praise Jesus. We need a break. I had already helped her pack her clothing bag, and we went upstairs to put a doll bag with Barbies and dolls. When we got to her room, I asked her if she would like to take Jonathon with. Jonathon is her new doll, a boy doll, that she got for Christmas and has been playing with the most. She went nuts. Started hitting, kicking and pushing me. I asked what the problem was, and all she could say was "you". I asked her to tell me why she was angry, but she was not able to.
These two examples, happen at least 10 times a day lately. Out of the blue often. Things are going fine, and boom, she is mad over the piddliest thing. Sometimes, she gets mad because I said something like "yes mam", or call her something like "honey" which I have done forever. Sometimes, it sends her through the roof and I get a tongue lashing for being the stupidest mom ever. Often, her anger is over something that she asked me to do. That really throws me for a loop. She will do something like ask me to turn the light on, I will turn it on, and then she will yell at me. I then ask her to repeat her request, she will, and I will say isn't this what you meant? Didn't you just ask me to turn the light on? She will say yes. I will ask then why she is mad. She has no real answer, just gets more agitated and yells more, and escalates.
If you would have told me 10 years ago that I would have a child behaving like Akila, I would have told you that I would have no patience for it and that I would anger easily if a child was saying and doing some of the things she does and says to me. I am not saying I don't lose it, because boy do I ever sometimes. But for the most part, I remain fairly calm, at least for the first hour or two. That is why weekends and non-school days are rough. That is why I love Mondays and am not a big fan of non-school days. Well I am not at all a fan of them to tell you the truth. This is a 3 day weekend, and I am so thankful that she is in respite until Sunday at 1:00. The other 3 kids all have a friend sleeping over tonight, and tomorrow, we will relax.