To see or not to see

Akila did great tonight at rehearsal. I am very glad, although, sadly, there is always a tiny, very tiny, part of me that wants others to see the stuff I blog about and share about. I know sometimes people think I must be stretching the truth, or even doing something wrong, when she behaves so well in public.

We were there from just after 4:00 pm until 10:00 pm. She was back stage the majority of the time, and according to the back stage moms, her behavior was good. She danced nicely, and was where she was suppose to be at the right time. At the ticket table, I was talking with some dance moms, who are aware of Akila's issues, and even read the blog from time to time. They laughed with me about how every time they see her, she is so nice and polite.

I am truly grateful that the majority of the world does not get to see, or have to see, her challenging side. But there is that ever so tiny part of me that wants people to be able to see it. Like I blogged about the therapist witnessing her issues just over a week ago. Yet, when people do get to see it, it is embarrassing and frustrating. I guess a good number of people have seen some of her edginess. I am guessing they will tomorrow. But what they see, is her coming up to me at the ticket table where I am working and being a demanding snot who will get quite mad if I don't give her what she needs. That is about the most they usually see. Unless they want her for a weekend. Then they would see more. Anyone game? :)